well, i shall deviate about the horribleness of guys, and my long struggle to get over one in particular.
have you ever loved someone so badly that you would die for them? so much that when you imagined what a life without him would be like you felt like dying yourself? i have, only the problem was that he didn't love me back, or even like me. (well i guess you could say we were friends) the point being was he knew all my feelings for him and he used me. he used me when he didn't have anybody to dote on him, and he used me for my undying friendship and attachment to him (he knew that i would never abandon him) and when he didn't need me anymore (you see i was just a space filler) he dropped me like a hot coal, and ran from me like the plague. and now i feel sooo stupid for ever thinking that he ever appreciated me or even had the slightest affection for me. it was all a lie! and i messed me up big-time.
now, i act like everythings fine and okay, i even fool myself into thinking that i like somebody else, but really i'm just numb to all men (boys really) and now i'm just waiting for somebody to come sweep me away, but thats never going to happen because i wouldn't let him, because i am forever paranoid that he'll hurt me like he did.